suddenly i feel i just might be able to say things are better in my mind today. definitely more at peace are my thoughts, but the drop dead silence at work is a tinge unnerving and i have to fight the feelings of revenge and hatred.

the frustration continues and hasn't gone quietly away. it is in my face like a brick frick wall. i am looking forward to this evening and tomorrow as well because i do not have to work at the rx. tonight i am going to work a tad over time, maybe. i am not sure because as the day grows longer i become less and less willing to deal with all of it. ignore me, do not speak to me, the mental violation i am dealing with here. only one person. i very rarely know what i am talking about here at work. i just feel so badly right now. i am not trying this again. i am not trying to steal someone else's job from them. i am just trying to improve on the technology that is readily available to us. as each day goes by i become less and less willing to work at it.

i am going to have to take a very very very long long vacation. and not to the crappy beach. yuck. so tomorrow night though i am going to buy some pants. i wonder if any of you are really short like me. although i am not considered a "small person" or "midget" it is incredible difficult to find pants that fit shorter legs. geez, i need to be my own seamstress. so i need some work pants, the grey and green ones are falling off me.